A Clarification of...Me - Revisited

I had the opportunity this morning to sit down with the individual who had sent me the email I had mentioned in my previous post. Through that experience I realized the need to clarify a little more...


First and foremost - I want to publicly apologize to that individual and say that I am sorry that the previous post became a reflection on you. It was not meant to be that. As I tried to described my thoughts and feelings behind my actions I fear that the focus of my post became that I received the email. That was not what it was intended to be, rather it was to give an explanation to others who may read that I do things out of love and to be my best.


The thing that I learned more than anything is that emails to express feelings are dangerous. As a word of caution to everyone, just as my friend and I have learned, just pick up the phone and talk instead. It is only then that you hear the true tone in which something is expressed. To shed some light: the intention behind the email I received was out of concern. I have come to understand that this person didn't want me to get burned out, didn't want me to become too overwhelmed. This person was aware of many things going on in my life and was doing it out of love. I explained to my friend that how the email was worded it actually came across in a way that seemed very much the opposite, very negative. I received just as many apologies as I gave for misunderstanding.

I am still glad that I did my previous post for one reason only. As I visited with my friend I realized that this friend had a specific perception of me because of the perception of them self. I know that at some point in time others may feel the same way and may have that same perception of me because of their own feelings. Although I try not to care or worry about what others think of me, I work hard to not cause hurt feelings. If at some period of time someone somehow has something similar they will know why I am reaching out. My previous post does explain my intentions and the feelings of my heart. Hopefully it will clarify and not allow others to think that I mean harm. I do feel the post served its purpose.

Mostly, I am sorry to my dear friend who I caused hurt by posting about the email. I should have dealt with the email itself differently and picked up the phone myself. Thank you, my friend, for sitting with me today, for sharing tears, thoughts, feelings and even laughter. I love you! and thank you for helping me to understand where you are coming from. Thank you for helping me grow as a person today. I am glad we are friends and pray that we will have many more opportunities to share our thoughts and concerns for each other (but over the phone or in person =) ). I love you!